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  Restless and unable to sleep like every other night over the last week, she flung off the top sheet and slipped into her robe.

  She’d been working on a new radiant-cut sapphire in a collet setting. Maybe that would take her mind off pining for her soon-to-be ex-husband.

  She padded downstairs in bare feet, pushed open the iron door and followed the floor-lit sconces towards her workshop.

  She pulled back the curtain to enter when a hand clamped on her shoulder and she screamed.

  ‘Hey, it’s me.’

  She should’ve relaxed at the sound of Jax’s voice but she didn’t, her nerves snapping taut at their inevitable confrontation when she’d barely slept all week.

  She whirled around and shoved him. ‘What the hell do you think you’re doing, sneaking around here and scaring me half to death?’

  ‘Sorry.’

  He held up his hands in surrender. ‘I thought you were asleep, just came in the back and was trying to be quiet when I saw you heading towards the workshop.’

  She folded her arms, hating how grumpy and out of sorts she sounded, hating the way her heart thumped and her body subconsciously craved him more.

  ‘You could’ve called out.’

  ‘And spoiled the surprise?’

  His mouth kicked into a crooked grin, his uncertainty surprising her. The Jax Maroney she knew was many things; uncertain wasn’t one of them.

  ‘Did you come to pick up your toothbrush?’

  His smile faded and she mentally kicked herself for sounding so abrupt.

  ‘If that’s what you want.’

  Sheesh. What did he mean by that? Was he putting this back on her? Did he want to pick up where they’d left off? Sex without strings? A fake marriage without emotional investment?

  She would’ve settled for those things once, and she had. Before she’d made the mistake of falling in love.

  ‘What do you want?’

  ‘You,’ he said, a second before dragging her into his arms and crushing her mouth with his.

  He didn’t give her time to resist, didn’t give her time to breathe as she lost all rational thought the moment his tongue touched hers.

  She reached for him, clung to him, as they made up for a week’s worth of lost contact with a kiss to end all kisses.

  He ravaged her and she let him. Revelling in his frantic hands, his demanding lips.

  As they eased apart, dazed and clamouring for more, reality sank in.

  She couldn’t do this, not when she had to walk away.

  She pressed her palms to his chest, wanting to push him away, but unable to resist the last, fleeting contact.

  ‘Jax, we had a deal and I’m willing to stick to it. We keep up the marriage pretence ’til your mine is global and we’re in the black, that’s it.’

  He stiffened. ‘You want out?’

  She gnawed on her bottom lip, willed her tears away. ‘Were we ever in it together to begin with?’

  He didn’t answer, his probing gaze sweeping her face, searching for answers. Pity she didn’t know the questions.

  ‘Bull.’

  She gaped, uncomprehending as he pressed her hands to his chest and held them there.

  ‘We were both in this marriage from the beginning.’

  ‘Physically—’

  ‘And the rest.’ He snagged her hand and dragged her to the front of the showroom, to the spot where they’d met. ‘From the minute you bowled up to me here, all sass and smart mouth, you had me.’

  ‘Had you?’ she parroted, sounding inane but increasingly captivated by his revelations.

  ‘Yeah. I didn’t want to feel anything for you, couldn’t feel anything, so I thought, but I visited my dad today and maybe I’m not such a lost cause after all—’

  ‘You visited your dad? That’s great,’ she said, his nervous rambling endearing him as much as his disclosures.

  ‘I did it for us,’ he blurted, releasing her hand to start pacing. ‘You were right about me needing to see him to face the past, deal with it and move on. I needed to get things straight in my head before I saw you, because I didn’t want to mess up like I did with the promise ring.’

  She winced. ‘Sorry, I didn’t expect it and it came out of the blue.’

  He stopped in front of her, tilted up her chin. ‘Oh, you expected a ring, just not an imitation of the real thing.’

  He reached into his pocket and pulled out a navy box. A Seaborn’s box, and her heart stalled.

  ‘That promise ring was exactly that. A promise I’d wait for you. I didn’t want to rush you, didn’t want to scare you with my feelings, so I gave you an interim ring, giving you space ’til you made up your mind if you wanted this marriage to work for real.’

  He inched open the lid with his thumb and her heart kick-started again, racing a million beats a minute.

  ‘Besides, this one wasn’t finished and I wanted to give you something—’

  She squealed as she caught sight of the ring.

  Her ring.

  A perfect three-carat fantasy-cut pink diamond set in white gold.

  ‘How—when—why—?’

  He slipped the ring from the box and slid it onto the ring finger of her left hand. ‘You once told me how much an engagement ring means to you, how you didn’t want one unless it meant the real thing.’

  As the ring slid into place he lifted her hand to his mouth and kissed it.

  ‘I’m hoping this ring says what I feel in my heart a lot more eloquently. I love you, Ruby Seaborn. Probably fell a little bit in love with you the first moment we met. I didn’t want to love you—’

  ‘Quit while you’re ahead.’ She kissed him, wrapping her arms so tightly around him she never wanted to let him go.

  The timing of the ring proved his love. He’d commissioned it before their weekend away, before the promise ring, before she’d lost the plot.

  When they eased apart, she clung to his shirt and gave him a little shake.

  ‘You should’ve told me about the engagement ring earlier.’

  ‘You should’ve trusted me, trusted what’s in here.’

  He placed his hand over her heart and it turned over and leapt straight into his palm.

  ‘So I’m guessing a marriage proposal is kind of redundant, huh?’

  She laughed and locked her hands around his neck. ‘I don’t know, a girl can never have too many bits of jewellery. Seeing as I’ve got the wedding band and engagement ring and promise ring, maybe an eternity ring wouldn’t go astray?’

  ‘You don’t need a ring for me to show you I’ll love you for eternity.’

  ‘Awww...tough guy’s really a big softie underneath.’

  He growled and nuzzled her neck. ‘That’ll be our little secret.’

  ‘For ever,’ she murmured, a moment before his lips touched hers.

  She couldn’t think of a better way to celebrate their marriage, having her husband’s undying love.

  Though she did have her eye on some flawless canary diamonds that would make a perfect eternity ring...

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  CHAPTER ONE

  ‘YOU say it was your grandparents’ wish that their ashes be buried here, in the graveyard of the church of Santa Maria?’

  The dispassionate male voice gave away as little as the shadowed face. Its bone structure was delineated with strokes of sunlight that might have come from Leonardo’s masterly hand, revealing as they did the exact nature of the man’s cultural inheritance. Those high cheekbones, that slashing line of taut jaw, the hint of olive-toned flesh, the proud aquiline shape of his nose—all of them spoke of the mixing of genes from the invaders who had seen Sicily and sought to possess it. His ancestors had never allowed anything to stand in the way of what they wanted. And now his attention was focused on her.

  Instinctively she wanted to distance herself from him, to conceal herself from him, she recognized, and she couldn’t stop herself from stepping back from him, her ankle threatening to give way as the back of her pretty wedged shoe came up against the unseen edge of the gravestone behind her.

  ‘Take care.’

  He moved so fast that she froze, like a rabbit pinned down by the swift, deathly descent of the falcon from which his family took its name. Long, lean tanned fingers closed round her wrist as he jerked her forward, the mint-scented warmth of his breath burning against her face as he leaned nearer to deliver an admonishment.

  It was impossible for her to move. Impossible, too, for her to speak or even think. All she could do was feel—suffer beneath the lava-hot flow of emotions that had erupted inside her to spill into every sensitive nerve-ending she possessed. This was indeed torture. Torture…or torment? Her body convulsed on a violent surge of self-contempt. Torture. There was no torment in this man’s hold on her, no temptation. Nothing but self-loathing and…and indifference.

  But her whispered, ‘Let go of me,’ sounded far more like the broken cry of a helpless victim than the cool, calm command of a modern and independent woman.

  * * *

  She smelled of English roses and lavender; she looked like an archetypical Englishwoman. She had even sounded like one until he had touched her, and she had shown him the fierce Sicilian passion and intensity that was her true heritage.

  ‘Let go of me!’ she had demanded.

  Caesar’s mouth hardened against the images her words had set free from his memory. Images and memories so sharply painful that he automatically recoiled from them. So much pain, so much damage, so much guilt for him to bear.

  So why do what he had to do now? Wasn’t that only going to increase her deserved animosity towards him, and increase his own guilt?

  Because he had no choice. Because he had to think of the greater good. Because he had to think, as he had always had to think, of his people and his duty to his family line and his name.

  The harsh reality was that there could be no true freedom for either of them. And that was his fault. In every way, all of this was his fault.

  His heart had started to pound with heavy hammer-strokes. He hadn’t built in to his calculations the possibility that he would be so aware of her, so affected by the sensual allure of her. Like Sicily’s famous volcano, she was all fire, covered at its peak by ice, and he was far more vulnerable to that than he had expected to be.

  Why? It wasn’t as though there weren’t plenty of beautiful, sensual women all too ready to share his bed—who had, in fact, shared his bed before he had been forced to recognise that the so-called pleasure of those encounters tasted of nothing other than an emptiness that left him aching for something more satisfying and meaningful. Only by then he’d had nothing he could offer the kind of woman with whom he might have been able to build such a relationship.

  He had, in effect, become a man who could not love on his own terms. A man whose duty was to follow in the footsteps of his forebears. A man on whom the future of his people depended.

  It was that duty that had been instilled into him from childhood. Even as an orphaned six-year-old, crying for his parents, he had been told how important it was that he remember his position and his duty. The people had even sent a deputation to talk to him—to remind him of what it meant to stand in his late father’s shoes. By outsiders the beliefs and customs of his people would be considered harsh, and even cruel. He was doing all he could to change things, but such changes could only be brought in slowly—especially when the most important headman of the people’s council was so vehemently opposed to new ideas, so set in his ways. However, Caesar wasn’t a boy of six any more, and he was determined that changes would be made.

  Changes. His mind drifted for a moment. Could truly fundamental things be altered? Could old wrongs be put right? Could a way be found…?

  He shook such dreams from him and turned back to the present.

  ‘You haven’t answered my question about your grandparents,’ he reminded Louise.

  * * *

  As little as she liked his autocratic tone, Louise was relieved enough at the return of something approaching normality between them to answer curtly, ‘Yes.’

  All she wanted was for this interview, this inspection, to be over and done with. It went against everything she believed in so passionately that she was patently expected to virtually grovel to this aristocratic and arrogant Sicilian duke, with his air of dangerously dark sexuality and his too-good looks, simply because centuries ago his family had provided the land on which this small village church had been built. But that was the way of things here in this remote, almost feudal part of Sicily.

  He was owner of the church and the village and heaven knew how many acres of Sicilian land. He was also the patronne, in the local Sicilian culture, the ‘father’ of the people who traditionally lived on it—even if those people were members of her grandparents’ generation. Like his title and his land, it was a role he had inherited. She knew that, and had grown up knowing it, listening to her grandparents’ stories of the hardship of the lives they had lived as children. They had been forced to work on the land owned by the family of this man who now stood in front of her in the shaded quiet of the ancient graveyard.

  Louise gave a small shiver as she looked beyond the cloudless blue sky to the mountains, where the volcano of Etna brooded sulphurously beneath the hot sun. She checked the sky again surreptitiously. She had never liked thunderstorms, and those mountains were notorious for conjuring them out of nothing. Wild and dangerous storms, capable of unleashing danger with savage cruelty. Like the man now watching her.

  * * *

  She wasn’t what he had expected or anticipated, Caesar acknowledged. That wheat-blonde hair wasn’t Sicilian, nor those sea-green eyes—even if she did carry herself with the pride of an Italian woman. She was around medium height, fine-boned and slender—almost too much so, he thought, catching sight of the narrowness of her wrist with its lightly tanned skin. The oval shape of her face with its high cheekbones was classically feminine. A beautiful woman. One who would turn male heads wherever she went. But her air of cool serenity was, he suspected, worked for rather than natural.

  And what of his own feelings towards her now that she was here? Had he expected them? Caesar turned away from her so that she wouldn’t be able to see his expression. Was he afraid of what it might reveal to her? She was a trained professional, after all—a woman whose qualifications proved that she was well able to dig down deep into a person’s psyche and find all that they might have hidden away. And he was afraid of what she might find in him.

  He was afraid that she might rip away the scar tissue he had encouraged to grow over his guilt and grief, his pride and sense of duty, over the dreadful, shameful demands he had allowed them to make on him. So was it more than just guilt he felt? Was there shame as well? He almost didn’t need to ask himself that question when he had borne those twin burdens for over a decade. Had borne them and would continue to bear them. He had tried to
make amends—a letter sent but never replied to, an apology proffered, a hope expressed, words written in what at the time had felt like the blood he had squeezed out of his own heart. A letter never even acknowledged. There would be no forgiveness or going back. And, after all, what else had he expected? What he had done did not deserve to be forgiven.

  His guilt was a burden he would carry throughout his life, just as it had already been, but that guilt was his private punishment. It belonged solely to him. After all, there could be no going back to change things—nor, he suspected, anything he could offer that would make recompense for what had been done. So, no, being here with her had not increased his guilt—he already bore it in full measure—but it had sharpened its edge to a keenness that was almost a physical stab of pain every time he breathed.

  They were speaking in English—his choice—and anyone looking at her would have assumed from the understated simplicity and practicality of her plain soft blue dress, her shoulders discreetly covered by simple white linen, that she was a certain type of educated middle class professional woman, on holiday in Sicily.

  Her name was Louise Anderson, and her mother was the daughter of the Sicilian couple whose ashes she had come to bury in this quiet churchyard. Her father was Australian, also of Sicilian origin.

  Caesar moved, the movement making him aware of the letter he had placed in the inside pocket of his suit jacket.

  * * *

  Louise could feel her tension tightening like a spring being wound with deliberate manipulation by the man watching her. There was a streak of cruelty to those they considered weaker than themselves in the Falconari family. It was there in their history, both written and oral. He had no reason to behave cruelly towards her grandparents, though. Nor to her.

  It had shocked her when the priest to whom she had written about her grandparents’ wishes had written back saying that she would need the permission of the Duke—a ‘formality’, he had called it—and that he had arranged the necessary appointment for her.

  She would rather have met him in the bustling anonymity of her hotel than here in this quiet, ancient place so filled with the silent memories of those who lay here. But his word was law. That knowledge was enough to have her increasing the distance between them as she stepped further back from him, this time checking first to make sure there were no potential obstructions behind her, as though by doing so she could somehow lessen the powerful forcefield of his personality. And his sexuality…